night owl · 10mo
it's tough to navigate. it breaks my heart too that it's like this now. it feels like a betrayal, but I don't know what else to do
i’m stuck in a place where i can’t even listen to the music without it being upsetting but i’ve always written ff separated from the actual people and i think of my writing as characters
so on one hand, i want to write and draw (and not only for that fact but so many things in my life are going wrong, i don’t think i can handle another change) and at the same time, i’m struggling with it. i knew if i had a community that shared my other interests, it wouldn’t be as hard. but i feel really really alone outside of this fandom specifically and sometimes it feels like this is all i have. so i’m really stuck and i think we’re all really stuck in different ways and i really really hope things change for the better for once.
