local anon · 17d
Hey. thank you for posting about your hardships. I woke up this morning crying, the only thing I'v managed to do recently is get out of bed after a 14hr sleep for the last week or so. Gaming in the meantime is really awesome and helps me switch my brain off but as soon as it's over im in this state of wanting to be swallowed by something and sleep without feeling, but that also feels sucky. Sorry for the TMI, I am going to be ok, just having a rough time right now. To know that someone can go through something similar and have the effects of oh fuck now it take me 2-3 weeks to get used to drawing normally again helps calm the pain of everything down. I thought being knocked out for a week to a month was abnormal and something I caused myself, even if I've been seeing a therapist for forever but this is something I haven't managed to resolve. ANYWAYS, all I want to say is really thank you for thoughts.
I look up to you and to your work. I have no idea of your life besides what you write, so it was a very grounding and human thing to read after waking up feeling deadbeat. My heart feels lighter today.
I hope yours too. Take care and have a good rest of the month.
I am waving to the skies sending you good energy.
man I am sorry you're going through it. been there, done that, and will probably be there again.
not sure what your diagnosis is but being bipolar myself I definitely understand how much it sucks when you have no control over the state of your internal world or the condition of your mental health and you just have to do your best to survive it and always aspire to work toward a world where you don't have to anymore.
if sharing my experiences helped you feel like the pressure evaporated just a little bit, I'm glad. please take care of yourself. however you find rest and hope is valid, gaming or otherwise, and I hope it gets easier as time goes on.
